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Eclipsical aftermath

Sunday, August 2nd, 2009

I’m not really sure that eclipsical is a word, but it sure has been a heck of a week & a half!  Things shifted, and through it all I tried hard to remember to ask “What is this reflecting in me?” each time I got upset at my circumstances or at another person.  I must say, it does seem to get easier as I get the hang of it.

My darling 20-year-old daughter is leaving the nest today, and taking some of her earthly belongings with her.  I took about 20 minute to maneuver the U-Haul trailer into position in the driveway, and we will be setting out for Montreal in a few hours.  Big excitement, lots of nerves, but we’ll all be fine.  She’ll be back for a visit on Wednesday, lol!

I am looking forward to this new phase in both our lives – I am excited for the changes we will experience.  Our relationship will now move into a new phase, and while I know there will be some stress & some tears as we adjust,  I have really come to appreciate endings for the wonderful beginnings they bring.  I love beginnings.  Fresh chapters, new stories.  It’s all good.

Eclipses – hmmmm….

Thursday, July 23rd, 2009

Just a quick word here about the 2 recent eclipses – one a few weeks ago at the Full Moon, and Tuesday night’s Solar eclipse that we are still being influenced by (for the next day or two).  Eclipses are like the skipping forward of a record, for those of you old enough to remember vinyl, and they cause great change that can be cathartic or catastrophic, depending on where we are on our Path.  I will post a little more on this later but for those of you who have been feeling like you are being bombarded with non-stop energy that has you flailing, relax.  It’s hitting all of us.  Stop fighting & go with the flow (see previous post!).  We’re all going to be ok.

More later….

Going With The Flow – Not Just for Dead Fish!

Thursday, July 23rd, 2009

Here I am after 2 marvellous weeks volunteering/enjoying the Ottawa Bluesfest, complete with a stage-side seat for CAKE  – one of my very favourite bands.  I love being one of the 4000 or so volunteers who help make this event happen! And now I am adjusting back into everyday life, and considering next steps in my journey. 

I have often been told that I should be writing, by friends both in & out of physicality <grin>, so today I choose to write here.  And the topic, as you’ve probably determined from the title of the post, you clever creature, is about following the flow of our lives.  Now, a former candidate for high office in the US who I will not name here recently said that only dead fish go with the flow, and I have given that some thought.  I’ve even googled “fish swimming” to get some feel for whether it is true or not, but there was too much talk of muscle groups & the mechanics of fish swimming for me.  And then this morning I got a Daily OM on just this topic – what a coincidence!

I have decided that for humans, going with the flow is more like rafting a river, something I had the opportunity to do once or twice on the beautiful Bow in Alberta, and which I did informally (without raft) as a kid on the Otonabee.  As anyone who has been on water will tell you, following the flow is not lazy, or without skill.  It requires awareness, and the ability to make decisions in the moment, and to accept previous decisions as having had their impact but no longer needing our immediate attention – to rehash them as we travel detracts from our awareness of where we are now, and therefore our ability to make good decisions based on current circumstances.  The time to review is when we are off the water, having a bite to eat & perhaps a beer with our fellow travellers, or maybe others who have also experienced that course.  But all of our power & control is only in the present moment, that sometimes elusive thing that we look for in meditation.  I think this is why physical activity can so often be a form of meditation – we must stay focused on our changing conditions and nothing exists except Right Now.  Following the flow is the ONLY option in these circumstances, if we want to avoid possible injury.

And so it is with our lives – all of our power & control is in this moment, and yet we muddy the water by carrying forward our fears for the future & judgements from other moments – or worse yet, those of others who may or may not have followed the same course we did!  Don’t get me wrong – experience & planning are important & can help us to avoid making the same mistakes again & again, and input from others can enhance knowledge gleaned from our own experience.  It’s just that the time for reviewing those past choices is immediately after we made them, so we can take the learning & release anything that might limit us in future.  And then we can make good decisions, in the flow, following our own experiences and our knowledge.  Because we are the only ones there, on the water, making the decision that will determine where we go next. 

Wanna go rafting?

Quantum Shift

Wednesday, December 3rd, 2008

The last many weeks have been intense and at times overwhelming – as I speak with people about our experiences, I understand that no-one is escaping these changes, it is only a matter of degrees between us.  I realized today that many of us who have lived “dark & twisty” lives, with a fair amount of drama, chose our Paths in order to anchor more Light around us.  Let’s face it, no-one gets the urge to create great change while they’re sitting by the pool drinking Mai Tais (and for the record, I am not even sure what is in a Mai Tai).  So we get drama & trauma, and as we heal from that we bring in more Light, and now we are finally at a place where there is so much Light and so much Hope that it is time for us to release those experiences that got us here.  So they come up for our review – all the voices from our past that call us names and tell us we’re not worthy – not to torment us, but to be released.  The energy is lighter now, and all that baggage is no longer necessary.  The happy train is pulling into the station, and we need to lighten our loads to just the things that will be needed on the next leg of our journey.  So don’t despair – honour yourself for the amount of space you’ve held for everyone around you who never seemed to have as much difficulty in their lives.  It was your loving energy that allowed them to walk more lightly.  And now it is our turn to walk lightly as well.  Yes We Can!

Oh, and…

Sunday, September 14th, 2008

I forgot to point out that this shift gives us opportunities for transition, as well – new homes, new jobs, new lives.  Of course, to get to the new, we have to finish with the old.  Some people will seem to take their leave voluntarily, others not so much.  But each leaving is chosen at a higher level, and if we remember this we can honour both our choices and those that others are making.  All is as it should be, even when it desperately appears otherwise.  Feel free to drop me a line if you are having difficulty remembering this.

Saturday morning

Saturday, September 13th, 2008

As previously mentioned, life has been interesting lately, in the Chinese curse sense of the word.  More & more I believe that we are in the midst of a huge shift in our very beings, and that has shaken loose all the old crap in our cupboards.  This makes it easier to sort through it all, as long as we stay calm & grounded in today, realizing that we have not moved in time and are not re-experiencing some of those old events and emotions.  We are being gifted with a recap of where we’ve been so far.

There’s an interesting piece of our anatomy, the amygdalae, which are almond shaped groups of neurons located in the temporal lobes of our brains.  They are involved in the storing of memory & the emotionality of those memories, and in our “fight or flight” mechanisms, which of course draw upon memories to help us determine when we’re in danger.  When these memories arise, the amygdalae react as if the event is happening in real time – it does not differentiate between now & then, and so we become overwhelmed with the emotions as if we were in that same place again.  So it is important when processing memories that are less than joyous to say to your body, out loud if need be, that you are safe, and that there is no need to be sad, afraid, angry. I find that patting or rubbing my leg or arm if I feel distress is helpful, as is stopping to look around & confirm that all is well at this moment.  And of course, deep breaths are always calming.

I believe that our world has changed, and continues to change, to one with more Light & Love.  There are those who can’t believe that it’s possible, and those who’d prefer that the changes be reversed – we are not so easily controlled when we are not afraid.  As we continue through these interesting times, keep your heart open, count your many blessings each day, and view life as the wonderful adventure it is.  Remember that all that you do is chosen by you, and if you choose not to, then don’t.  This will allow you to experience the shift in positive ways.

I’ve been told that October 14th will be a significant day in some way, and although it is the beginning of the Jewish Sukkot and the date chosen by Prime Minister Steve to formally demonstrate his contempt for the election law his government brought into being (yes, I’m bitter), keep your heart open for something greater that will help everyone to understand that we are all part of the All That Is.  How’s that for cryptic? <grin>…ch….changes

Friday, September 5th, 2008

This week has been particularly intense for me personally, and now I have the chance to walk my talk about staying in my flow & trusting that all is well.  I find it virtually impossible to begin tasks that I feel obligated to do, and I think the lesson is that we should exercise our right not do things we do not want to do.  If we think it must be done, then we are to find the joy & gratitude in the task rather than go at it as a burden, or put another way, I must find the gift in everything or I simply get stopped.  So it’s not that these tasks should be abandoned, but rather that they should be done with the knowledge that I really don’t HAVE to if I don’t want to – I do them because they bring peace or order (or money, in the case of work) into my life, and because I’ve decided that I do not want to deal with the circumstances that might arise from them not getting done.  I suppose it’s just moving out of that victim mentality and acknowledging that I ALWAYS have a choice about what I do – I just have to weigh the pros & cons of the outcome & then choose according to what I’d like to happen next.  Acknowledging this makes me an active participant in my life and puts power back in my hands.  And then I can begin to be choosy about what I choose!

Now, off to make a list of what I choose to do in my life today!

First Blog Entry

Monday, June 9th, 2008

I am sitting here at the computer, contemplating my rather extensive to-do list, and finding creative ways to avoid it – hence this post.  At this moment, I haven’t even uploaded the page with the new menu, so it’s not like “I have to”.  In fact, I have a Daily Reflection reading up on the topic of “laziness”, but I guess I could just have easily made it “procratination”.  I’m going to look at the spread a little later <grin>, perhaps after I put a load of laundry in.  But if I go to the basement, I have to take the continuous drain hose from the portable air conditioner and run it through the joists so it can drain into the laundry sink, so it doesn’t need to go into the bathtub, thus preventing the bathroom door from closing.  Man, it just never ends!  So perhaps it’s not laziness or procrastination, but just “had enough”.  Perhaps I’ll take a peek BEFORE I go to the laundry.  But I have to go to the bathroom, so I need the door to close…..

Be right back.

OK, so the hose is run to the basement.  And my darling daughter is making dinner, so I am taking one more moment to write and finish my coffee.